THE GRUDGE

oh man that movie is a killer. i saw it two times and both times i saw it i was scared as fuck. the first time i saw it i went with a huge mob of my cousins and family and i CRIED i was so scared. the second time i saw it i was with baybe, ray , lesley, & jessica [ krazzi sister] . that was fun . i finally got to chill with there pretty asses. & i stole jessicas bra strap l0l. it was fun except this asshole in front of us this PUNK ASS WHITE BOY was like
" can you shuttup " fkin asshole its a scary movie . didn't stop us though we kept screaming. i bumped into chris & lindley two mofos i havent seen in a long ass time . they were with there usual "chi-town" boys. yano who they are. but yeah after that we went to wendys .. food .. umm ummm good . my
fatt ass haha =) but yeah than everyone went home. fun night but i was tierd from work and some other things.

btw. thanks lesley, jessica , & chris for visiting me @ work.
... i`ll do this shit later. right now i'm hungry .

feelings inspired by ate juju -*

the more i push the more they pull
the more i cry the more they laugh
the more i walk away the more i find myself running back to where i started
the more fear the more i get weaker than i am
the more problems i get the more rewards everyone recieves
the more i break down the more they succeed.
the more i want to break away the more i find myself hanging on
the more i try the more i fail
the more i say i love you the farther we are
the more i say i'm sorry the more you hate me
the more friends i make the more i loose
the more loved ones i cherish the more i'm taking for graunteed
the more i'm there for people the more i find myself talking to a wall
the more i do the less i recieve
the more i want something the more i dont get it
the more i think things are unfair the more i never get my way
the more i like the more i being to hate
the more i look at memories the more my future flashes in my face
the more i scream the more no one listens
the more i try to hide the more i'm found
the more weak i am the more stronger they are
the more i pray the more miracles happen for other friends
the more i learn the less i understand
the more i think of life the more i wish i were dead.

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[ more to come ] i'm at MARj's krib and shes not here . `nyahha i'm bored. rawr.

Baybee I love YOU

 so much..haha

you know you love " my great plan"

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hehe thanks baybee.. that wasn't me guys that was ralph
he decided to hack this =)

my life flashes before my eyes , as a sudden image seems to appear in my mind, the memories replay and the sounds grow louder and louder. friendships reappear and past mistakes keep haunting me. as i slowly dive into life i'm forced under water by a quick flowing wave. as my real friends help me swim to the top another wave comes crashing over me .. it seems as if i come closer to drowning everytime i mess up , i've made my mistakes and i am sorry for them but there's no use in trying to undo what's already been done. if you can't understand me than you'll never understand what our friendship is worth. it's better to just drop me now & loose all contact because i refuse to be friends with someone who won't atleast try to help me conquer these waves. if your willing to forgive my mistakes and accept me for me and you want to build a stronger friendship with me than by all means lend me a surf board and lets swim the ocean together. .